I've never been this broken before
Never..
But now, what else can I do when it comes to this?
16 year old turning 17.
And it already feel this bad, how will my future life go?
I wish I could wake up with amnesia.
And.. forget about these little things.
Why is it that I try to be sensitive to people all the time,
but nobody cares about how I feel?
Am I really that unimportant.
I always care without expecting a return,
but all I wish is at least be sensitive to how I feel.
To wait and to see
My own friends forgetting about me
I can't even forgive myself for being that dumb.
I stood there and waited for seconds
to see if any one notices that I'm gone
Sadly no one did.
I get angry and wished something would change.
But no.
Honestly having no one there in my life sucks.
Last time I would care and start an argument.
But right now I'm too lazy to even bother.
Why....
Because I'm always ugly, because at the end of the day, I'm forgotten.
Nobody will ever care about me as much as I care about them
If only I can become selfish
More selfish
........
But I can't.
And all I can do is to secretly cry in the middle of the night,
suffocating myself with those 2am thoughts.
