My life is so screwed.
I don't know what else to do, what else to say.
I'm not losing any faith; but I just don't know what else to say
I just long for the day where I wont feel it any more
This loneliness I feel
When will it stop, will it ever stop?
The fact that I'm such an introvert makes me sick
I want to stop it but I can't
I'm afraid of falling
Afraid of opening up to people
I'm a failure in life
Never for once did I did something right.
Always at the end of the day
I feel so much it overwhelms and drains my energy away
Whenever I open up, I get hurt
It makes me wonder why do I even try
At the end of the day I can never win
Because the truth is right from the start I lost
My expectations ruins me
But I don't know how to stop
Because I act the things that's in my expectations
.. Allowing me to expect nothing lesser than what I've done.
Someday all these will stop.
That aching feeling
That loneliness
That fear of never good enough
Those ever falling tears
It will all stop, eventually.
Please I pray, let me depend on Papa God more. More. And more.
Till all these stops, I'll believe.
