Meeeeep loving my baggu from the cellgroup.
So recently, I'm stressed, like mad. Stress coming from homework, End of year, Idk, tons of things. Recently keep having loads and loads of nightmares, sucks to the core. And then having tons of head ache too, like never-ending. I don't know I need a break, from everyone from the society from school from life. Can I get a coma for like 1 month or so and then wake up and then restart my life again?
I mean I'm happy how my life ended after so many friendship problems. Now I have like both my most treasured besties with me, and yea.. But I'm afraid, what if next year we changed class and dang, none of them are with me? Am I gonna be back into the... left out me? The extra me? The 'no one cares' girl? Idk, I'm just so.. messed up with my thoughts right now.
Everything seems to matter so much to me now, even a day.
And damn, I really need to pass my mathematics. It sucks to the core that if I fail it again on EOY, I'm gonna freaking drop to Normal acad. Not criticizing any NA people here, so if it sounds offensive, I apologize. I don't mind gg NA, I don't mind this I don't mind that I'm just afraid of disappointments, afraid of judgements. God, please save me out of this misery. I've been waiting and waiting, when'll the day I shine come? God, please.. I'm still holding on, I don't want to give up I know with You things will go better, but when? After eoy? No I can't afford that, God, please, please give me the strength to glorify You and rise, please give me the strength to do everything I want to. Please Lord.
And to those some people..
Stop thinking my tweets are referring to you, I'm not even half close with you so what makes you think I'm gonna judge you? Anyw, please just go live your life and I'll live mine. Enough said, stop thinking that I'm saying about you or blashits, or this or that because simple enough I don't care. You're like.. not really that worth me talking about. So, please stop shooting back like nobody's business cos.. it's just irritating. kthxbye.
