Okay hahah before I start my rants on holidays, I want to dedicate this post to my dearest sister xuan xuan!
Hahaha okay I know her birthday was like days ago but yeap!
H A P PY B I R T H D A Y X U A N X U A N! <3
k, she's one of the most important people in my life. without her? my life would be plain boring & lame. we always have fights but yeap we still love each other. and whoever that tries to hurt her in the future, I promise I'd still protect her regardless of whatever the situation is. Yeap, that's how much I love her. :') hehehe. sistertilleternitywithGod! :)
Okay holidays here.
Uh yea camwhore!! hahahaha. too bored already :< stuck at h o m e today and it's really unbearable. argh. wanna go out soon. Hmmms but then like not much friends to go out tgt leh.... Still looking forward to next week!! 4 days 3 night at Church camp limitless! awesomez or what! kekekeke. Went for Hungry man & it was great. piu piu piu piu. hahahaha. Hope that Choo ying will come to the camp... really prays hard for it. These few days other than spazzing over Usui, I'm practically like doing nothing at all LOL. Seriously y am I obsessed with an unreal person. upsetting much... Thanks to Usui I totally lost interests in real guys. see what a freak I am!!
Sigh thinking about how desperate I was for a boyfriend years back really makes me feel soooooo sick :< Like seriously why was I like that last time! argh. hahahaha but I'm not embarrassed though, I mean it's what you USED to be which gave you who you am today. So why for be ashamed of your past? :) unless you're telling me you're so perfect that you know every single thing on Earth when you were young. hahahaha k can. Sooooo growing up really makes me change a lot uh. Used to think that going secondary school was cool & stuffs, but lol I was wrong, literally wrong. uh uh uh uh.
Yeah. free from the past.
Actually I don't know what I'm feeling.. some times I'm happy, free from all the sadness and sometimes I'm just as tired as shit. People using me and more more. when'll it end? looking at myself and looking. exactly where do I look like a toy to others?
that moment.. when even the kindest friend you know dgaf about you...
Time to let go... time to give up.
Should I?
