Oh hai people!(:
It's been such a long long long time since I've posted right?(: heeeeee. these few weeks, I'm totally changed after being touched by God(: so.. expect lesser negative posts & more positive posts! thankful that I've got God to lean on. yes, the whole world might turn their back on me, but God will never will. ' It's for freedom that Christ has set us free, I live for You & not for me anymore, & Your mercy is new with everyday, no longer will I forfeit grace, I'll follow You and live by faith.' Thank You Lord.(: Oh anyway guys... guess what? 2 more weeks to Christmas! don't remember only Santa! It's Jesus's birthday! :D Next week's candlelight service already! *excited excited* & 2 more weeks to Christmas service! still in the progress of preparing presents, hehehe(:
/. Before I slept yesterday night.. I thought of the memories I had with my mother when she was still alive. No doubt, I miss her really a lot... It's like, 12 years down the road she's always with me, & suddenly. 'BAM' she's gone. & she's never gonna be back to ever again.. It's like I kinda miss holding hands with her, kinda miss watching/going crazy bout korean actors/dramas with her, kinda miss those times she would take sister & I out to shop/have fun. Though we don't get what we want due to financial problems, we still always have fun... when she was around, I always doesn't wish to go shopping with her cos it's tiring & my legs will always ache each time after shopping. but now, I wished I could turn back in time, or I wish, she could come back for one day, just to allow me to feel all that once again in my whole life. I really love her a lot, and I wish I told her more often when she was still alive.. It was just all regrets, and regrets. Been a year plus or so that I haven't heard her voice. Been so long that I touched her hands that was filled with warmth. Been so long that I have someone to share my problems with. Been so long... I've eaten home-cooked food which I used to eat everyday last time. I miss those times, where she'd cook really nice dishes for us.. I really wish to hug her once more, just once more will do..
