Well...
I'm just kinda sad.
And happy.
Happy because finally, I'm turning back to Him
And His peace and grace really never fails.
Sad because..
I'm always ugly.
Grateful for the fact that no matter what happened
He is here.
With me :)
Went back to church today, and it felt so wrong yet so right at the same time.
Almost close to three months
Three months without the presence of the Lord
was hell.
And I wanna be in His presence ever more,
though at times certain things do kill.
Still, I am grateful.
And hopefully I don't screw up the chance of restoring this relationship,
ever again.
I'm always that ugly shit.
That no one ever wants, and it saddens me.
No, it only proved me right.
How shallow the world is, how shallow people can get.
I am so sorry for being ugly
but it is really not my fault, and I'm just sick of it.
I've tried my hardest to become prettier and it sickens me how people sees nothing
but the cover.
Honestly nobody cares enough to see the insides of you,
if the cover does not pleases.
I'm sick, I'm tired. I'm sad.
Because at the end of the day, I am the one left alone, the one everyone hates.
Yet everyday I hear people gets insecure about themselves....
But does it matter?
After all God's gonna hear my screams,
He's gonna accept my all.
