Sunday, April 22, 2012

hate myself

Must I open my scars for you to see before you believe me that it hurts me a lot?
Everyone's just getting close to me cause they want another person who's close to me;
I'm so shameless.
When people kicks me aside, I go back to my ex-bestfriend and ask her to sit with me.
Why can't I just accept and deal with the fact that God wants me to be alone?
Idk why, I really don't know why.
Been ignored and stepped on yesterday and it hurts so badly. I want to scream I want to scream and let everything off me it's hard and Idk how.
Cry every night alone, cry every day alone, wtf am I exactly. air? invisible shit? k fine I get it. Next time I'm just gonna tell myself I'm a bitch and stop expecting too much....
I have no rights to dislike others, cos me, yes me have no life at all