Yes yes, it's been 1 month since I've updated my dead rusty blog. It's like wow. 1 months passed like that, zomgosh x1000000. hahahaha! Okay, was just being lame.
So.. life's been really busy and so on so on. Tests are all over! happy happy! Argh, just feeling bit tired cause public performance's coming and there's whole load of CCA practices for me to attend to. crazy much but half of my hols is used up thanks to CCA. might as well just kill me, I want my sleep badly... but oh wells, what to do? Secondary school is like that.
Back cause I wanted to post stuffs that describes my feeling again, gotta go soon as I need to organize my maths file and do english journal. However, I'll stay here with my blog untill I finishes this post! ok I'm lame.
This photo clearly already shows what I want to say. It's like so many judging people right now. I've been trying so hard to live on with all these judging, but it's hard. Like I have no idea what is it like to feel pain anymore. These days, I've seen certain friends criticizing another friends. Now let me tell you something, no matter how much you care for someone, please don't be dumb enough to say 'I hate you, you liar. you broke my trust, I hate you. I'll never forgive you.' Yea, you think it's caring? k, go eat some shit and die. When a person cuts themselves, please, please be smart and not say such things. It'll only hurt them more and cause them to cut more as all they realize or truly gets in their mind after you saying all those things is... 'Oh, I'm such an useless shit, no one cares, they all hates me now.' & then, as a friend.. no matter what reason it is for that particular person to cut, no matter it's minor or major, please don't say it's nothing or not painful at all. It might not be to you, but it might bring loads of pain to another. So before you are placed in their shoes, do not judge them, cause sometimes maybe all you know about them is their name.
I miss having group hugs. Remember on graduation day, we hugged and cried together. Sighs, maybe I should just deal with the fact that people leaves. and there's nothing I could do about it.I just can't let it go, 2 years passed. I'm still stuck there. I mean the fact that all of them left didn't hurt me, what truly haunts me is.. all those memories. I want it back, I want friendships like back then. So what if I had friends around me right now? I just can't, can't have the same fun with them. It's like, I went to WRSS, I be myself, have fun, but I never really open up to people about how I truly feel except for really a few people only. Sighs, why would people even want popularity.... Oh well, so yes. I practically ranted everything I wanted to. Yea baby. finally it's all out of me. Hmmms I don't think I've expressed myself well. It's okay, I shall just stop here. Getting sleepy and I'm too tired to rant now, hahaha. Changed my URL too... trying to keep a low profile. hehehehe.
